Fig Newton

What is the past? Is it our nightmares that we have every night or the dreams that we wish we could of fulfilled? What is forgiveness? Is it the word we use to get away from the pain or is it just there for you to tell someone you’re off the hook? The two words have been stuck in my head for ages now and I felt the need of expressing it as my first post on tumblr.

The first thing I want to express is about the past. Most people I think rely on the past to make the decisions they see fit. Don’t get me wrong; the past is sometimes a good thing to rely on. For example, bad decisions that you made in the past may affect a different outcome towards the present and your future. That is a good thing to learn from a.k.a. personal experience. The good side of it is for SOME people. MOST people rely on the past for bad reasoning. Mostly that people rely on the past deals with the word I come to see very often these days….pain. Pain is something that we all have and had. It’s something that I think keeps us going. It’s like love. Something that we can’t live without because it makes us who we are. I’m not saying that pain is a good thing, but a motivating factor. Without it, like love, we are nothing. No pain. No glory.

The past sometimes reflects on forgiveness. It changes the way we seek, feel and believe. It’s something that for some of us to use towards someone that has hurt us in the past. It may be easy for others, but it’s harder than that. Trust me. I’ve been through it. Not just me but all of us. At one point and time, we had someone that was dear to us and then in the long run crushed us as we were vulnerable. To trust somebody is a hard factor, especially for me. Without trust, there is no hope for having a relationship with the love of your life or the friendship with you’re best friend. Unfortunately for me, these happened at the same time. But in the end, I knew what needed to be done in order for me to keep both of them. I needed to forgive. Sure I was down for a couple of months, but through those months, I became stronger than ever. And with that forgiveness, it changed my outlook of life. 

Now I know what you’re thinking. Why am I posting this? This is me speaking from my heart. This is something that I felt I needed to get off of my chest. Something that I should of done a long time ago. And now, I’m better than ever. Past and forgiveness have been flowing through my head through out this whole month. So I decided to write about it. Forgive me for my heart being truthful. And so as I’ll do for every post that I deliver, I make a quote, but for tonight, it will be 2 quotes. Something for me and all of you who are reading this tonight to think about.

“The pain from any kind of incident can be healed no matter what…but not all of it. Some of that pain remains inside you to remind you where you come from and who you are. And with that, it’ll only make you stronger.”

“Love is the one that breaks us the most but keeps us moving. Without love, there is no future.”

Thank you for reading this post. Have a good night.